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A feeling of deja vu...

Just a short post, as there is not a lot I can say at this time. Let's just say this... Last time I started REALLY trying to be a better Christian, my life fell apart. It seems that it's happening again. I'm trying to be a better Christian, and things are getting rough. I know in my heart that at least some of this is just the human experience, and I know in my heart that most, if not all, of this is the Devil trying to sway me away from church, from learning about Jesus and becoming a Christian, but...my head struggles with this concept. Please pray for me. I'm working on getting better about praying, but right now, I can use all the help I can get.

Prayer - So Simple, Yet So Confusing

A wonderful, beautiful Christian friend of mine made a post on Facebook a couple days ago that made me stop and think. She talked about how we should talk to God on a daily basis, and not only when we need something. How do we talk to God? Through prayer, of course. But HOW do we pray? Is there any "right" or "wrong" way? Should I talk to God like I talk to my kids? No, He’s higher than that; talking to Him in that fashion would be disrespectful. I mean, really, when I talk to my kids, I am teaching them. What can I teach God that He doesn’t already know? Nothing, that’s what. He’s already all-knowing. He knows literally everything, far more than I could ever hope to know! Should I talk to God like I would talk to my boss? Again, no. While I am fortunate enough to have a good boss who is fairly relaxed, there is still a sense of reservation there. I wouldn’t talk to him in a close, casual manner, especially about anything outside my job (unless, of cour

What's wrong with me?

What’s wrong with me? I go to church nearly every week, but I struggle with faith. What’s wrong with me? Of all people, you would think that with everything I’ve been through and survived, I would have strong faith, but I don’t. What’s wrong with me? Don’t get me wrong…I do believe that God is real, that Jesus died for us, and that through Him, we can have everlasting life in Heaven. I have seen the power of prayer, and I have seen what God can do, even for those who are struggling in life. What’s wrong with me? Is it because I didn’t grow up with a strong religious background? Is it because the bit of religion I did grow up with turned out to be considered a cult? Is it because I’m a bit too independent, being forced in life to do things on my own? Is it the anxiety that I live with, which makes me question everything even when I know without a doubt that it’s correct? This past week, our pastor talked a bit about “borrowed faith”…the faith that childre